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keep hitting the same note...
over and over again. This was my thought about the breaking up of my last relationship. How fast can love turn into friendship? It's now 2 days ago since our break-up and today we're pretending to be friends. to whom are we lying? I'm not sure if he's doing that not to show his real emotions of any other reason, but being friends now is just impossible.
Im fine with the fact that's over now but at the moment, there's no space for more. I don't know what's worst; hurt or disappointing? After every break-up I was hurt, it's a naturally feeling which comes and go and once forgotten...friends. But it's the first time that I'm just disappointed. And this feeling is eating me up, because I'm on the phone for hours with him and I can't say that to him. He's so sensitive and breakable and in a bad mood right now, telling him more bad news would kill him for sure.
Ok, now's just the question: what's now? What's next? I'm since 2 years constantly in relationships, the longest break that i had was for 2 weeks. But I'm really tired of playing games, of all that bad promises with no content. Hearing "I love you" after a couple of days again. I'm just so sick of all that love stuff. maybe this disappointment was just right in time to calm down and to stop and to take a deep breath before the real thing comes through. My best friend read me the cards, and there is a blonde guy in my life which will come sooner as I can imagine...Believing the cards, he has to be the ONE!
So, we'll see.
Post je objavljen 12.01.2007. u 20:22 sati.